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Merry Christmas...Eve! lol

Fri, 25 Dec 2009 04:24:10 GMT

...or whatever other holiday you celebrate this month!!

Not going to be doing anything tomorrow. Since I'm with my grandparents I'm not really getting anything and the only thing special we've got planned is a big dinner. Other than that...nothing. Which is weird, but fine. The rest of the month is going to be busy though!! going out with Grace again to see Sherlock Holmes on the 27th and then my dad gets here the day after that! And then my colonoscopy on my birthday...ick. But at least we'll see if I have cancer. Oh joy. In other news...

Been catching up on xxxHolic and Tsubasa since the latter has been completed and the former is got to be simply one of my most favorite manga ever. I stopped reading both well over a year ago to focus on graduating high school. But now I'm starting them up again!! I'm almost done! Yay!! X3 Both are getting rather dark...but interesting. Chapter 181 of xxxHolic made me cry. CLAMP must like tugging at my heartstrings...

Been writing more of my novel...and re-writing it...again. I really need to stop that.

Well, enough for now!

Happy Holidays!!

Of Caprica and Roadblocks

Tue, 15 Dec 2009 04:10:59 GMT

So I just finished watching the Caprica Pilot on Hulu...WOW. It was interesting to get a more in-depth look into Caprica instead of only getting a few passing references of it in BSG. A very interesting take on how the cylons were created...and little-Adama...squee!! The ending gave me chills, can't wait 'till it airs so I can see what happens next! Definately weird to see Polly Walker dressed in modern clothes and ruling a private school instead of ruling a Roman household (as Atia from 'ROME'...God, I LOVE that show!), but still awesome that she's in what promises to be another great series...yay!!

As for me...I've all but given up the job hunt. No one is hiring and those who do are only interested in those much older than me, completely skipping over anyone from my age group...which I can understand completely, but still pisses me off nonetheless. At this point, the whole 'move to Alaska with my dad for a few months' thing is a go. If I can't find a job here, I might as well move on to someplace I can.

And then there's Christmas...and my birthday coming up in only a matter of weeks. Not much going on during Christmas as far as I can tell. But my dad will be here on the 28th and than the 29th will be spent up in Seattle shopping and watching Avatar and hopefully keeping my mind off food while I starve myself for my colonscopy the next day...on my birthday...yeah, I thought it was ironic too...XD lol. Not too worried about the procedure, even if I did have cancer at least it's a curable, treatable cancer unlike others which arn't so easily taken care of...

As for my writing...my main novel is suddenly running into several roadblocks...again. And all of them are of the plot type. Which means I may have to re-work it a bit. Damn. Oh well, that's how it goes I suppose. Better than running into these problems later, that's for sure.
Well, that's all for now...au revoir!

Organization

Thu, 03 Dec 2009 06:22:21 GMT

So my I've decided I'm going to organize (gasp!) things. Art related stuff stays on my DA account: http://animangel.deviantart.com/ while writing related activity stays here. This way my DA account won't overflow with EVERYTHING and this account actually gets used. I'm so smart it hurts...ouch.

Should post something soon...until then!

Wow, been a while...

Tue, 10 Nov 2009 00:37:44 GMT

Well, I was busy graduating high school and than moving out of my house and going back to Washington. And than there was all that time trying to find a job, living with my friend, helping her head to college, living with my grandparents...yeah, busy, busy, busy.

The job market here sucks. Hopefully there'll be jobs ina couple of days though, until then, I wait impatienly, in desperate need of a job...any job...please... pretty please...with a cherry on top...

Meanwhile, I've been introduced to the awesomeness that is Doctor Who, Naruto, Across the Universe, and of course Inuyasha: The Final Act (I sqealed like a rabid unashamed fangirl when I discovered that one). This is what happens when one has no job, no driver's license, and a shiny new iPhone. I watch anime and Doctor Who-ness on CorporateTube (a.k.a. YouTube) all day long. And fanfics...I read lots and lots and lots of fanfics...but then, I always did that. I even printed chapters off and read them in class. My teachers hated it. XD

And than there's the whole writing streak...for some reason I've had lots of unexplained rampant plot bunnies bouncing around in my head along with a crack muse who just won't shut up. So I did the only thing I could: I wrote. Alot. Weird. I think I've written more of all of my stories than I have on any one of them. I wrote like six pages in a couple hours (which for me, is a freaking Christmas miracle, well an early Christmas miracle...Santa's getting generous...or lazy). I'm notoriously unmotivated and procrastination is a religion of which I am a devout follower...so how the hell did this happen? Maybe the boredom and lack of anything to do is getting to me. It wouldn't be the first time.

Maybe I'll post some of what I've done if I'm not feeling particularly lazy...which I tend to be often. >.<

In the meantime, check out the pretties I did on my favoritist iPhone app ever! Yay for sketchbook mobile!!! http://animangel.deviantart.com/

I'm always left out...rant

Thu, 13 Mar 2008 23:42:57 GMT

Every year our high school basketball team goes to state, and every year so far, I've been too broke to buy a ticket and a bus seat to go (I need a job...now). It looks like tons of fun, not to mention the fact that all my friends abandon me on those two or three days of the tournament.

Today was no different.

I know my friends (most of them anyway) are in band, so they HAVE to go, but somehow, I still feel betrayed and lonely as they talk about the game and how much fun it will be before skipping off to the buses that takes them to Madison. I'm starting to think they don't realize I have feelings of my own. That I'm always strong and able to take care of my own problems while listening and helping them with thiers. I do know how to stick up for myself (my stepfather made sure of that...), but there's just some times I want a friend to hold me and listen to my problems for once. I mean they do do that, but not in the way I'd want them too. I used to do that with my two friends Amanda and Grace back in Washington all the time. But I can't really do that too often seeing as about three thousend miles seperates me from them. I love my friends here, but I'm homesick, now more than ever.

I want to go home, back to Washington, where everything is familiar and I could walk through Olympia blind-folded. I want to smell the sea in the air and roam the rainforest and go and walk to my old school and swing on the very same swing I used to swing on when I was five. I want familiarity, I want belonging, I want to wake up every morning smelling pine trees and flowers. I want to go to Baskin Robbins with my grandpa like I always used to. I want to kiss him on the cheek and tell him how much I love him and listen to his stories and jokes, because I know that someday soon, I won't be able to. That someday very soon, I will never see him again, and it breaks my heart to even think of it. I want to help my grandma cook and wash dishes, even though I used to hate doing so. I want to watch and help her sew, and have a meaningful conversation with her. I want to cuddle up next to my dad, who I rarely ever see, though looks so much like me. I want to play with my cousins and lead them on expeditions through the forests and parks only a few yards from thier house. I want to talk to my uncle, and have him show me how to fix an engine, even though I might not fully understand what he's saying. I want to read books with Amanda and catch up on all the years I've missed of her life. I want to talk about Egypt with Grace, the only one I can, my oldest and most faithful of friends. I want to walk through Oly (high school), the school I had always believed I would one day go, and look around and see all the faces I remember from childhood. I want to go to the park I used to always go to as a kid and play on the jungle gym like nothing has changed in the last ten years. I want to look out towards the sky and see mountains there, towering over the landscape. I want to go and swim in the ocean, just like I did so many times before, sqealing and giggling as I plunge into the icy water. I want to to sit and have dinner with my family, the family I now so rarely get to see, and just enjoy the fact that they are there, with me. I want to play mini-golf with my dad every weekend and not care if I win or lose. I want to call my father 'Daddy', just like I always have, despite how old I get every time I say it. I want to run out into the rain and smile as it drenches my clothes. I want...I want...I want...

I want many things. But most importantly, I want to go home.

Learning Languages...

Sun, 24 Feb 2008 02:55:33 GMT

I decided, after seeing my friend Ninda (from Indonesia) speak about three different languages, that I want to learn a seoncd language too! So now I found about a million podcasts on languages...and I couldn't pick one.

So I downloaded them all. O_o

All in all...I have ALOT...and when I say alot, I mean ALOT . Well, I never was one for choosing one or the other. At least I'll be well-versed in several different languages at once. Maybe now I'll be able to travel and not get lost for not knowing anything other than English. Currently on my iPod, I have: French, Japanese, Chinese-Mandarin (which I'll be learning anyway in school next year, but I want to get a head start), Irish, Itialian, Arabic, Hebrew...and...I can't remember the others...I'm not doing Spanish though, because I've always been one to do the opposite of what everyone else does. Since everyone in school is learning Spanish, I'm avoiding it. I'll learn it....eventually. Nothing against those who do know it...I'm just the odd person out is all. And I chose to be that way.

I think I'm going to go bug my friend Sue now to teach me Hmung again. Or Yee (her younger sister). Yee's much more enthusiastic than Sue is. XD lol.

What have I gotten myself into...>.<

yawn Finals is OVER! rant

Fri, 18 Jan 2008 17:26:09 GMT

At long last, no more finals. I finished my last one for Geometry an hour ago. Since I was one of the lucky basterds who didn't have another final for seventh hour, I got to waltz out of school...into 14 degree weather...no, scratch that, it felt more like -10 degree weather. I froze my ass off. *shivers* and my walk home takes about twenty minutes, so it wasn't a pleasant one. I was pissed too because my cat chewed through my new earphones I JUST bought a week ago for my iPod, because my other ones finally died on me. So I resorted to my nine-year old brother's psp earphones, which are painful to wear. Yup, today's definatley not my day.

Oh, pasifikhas a meme she did, which came from loveroftheflame
(and since I can't get copy and paste to work, I'm gonna skip the introduction, because I'm too lazy to type it all out.)

The one and only project I'm working on:

Untitled (I know, I'm the best at coming up with names arn't I?)

"No. If I killed him, you'd know, trust me."

Sad that I'm only working on one thing unlike everyone else who can multitask out there. But then again, this is like all my previous stories, projects, and ideas combined. Maybe one day when I'm done outlining every little detail, I'll actually let someone see it. Until than, only my friends can steal my leather notebook and take a peak XD (which they do often, though I'm unsure if they can even make out my scrawly hanwriting). That reminds me of what my friend Brent told me. Apparently during the holidays, he and his friends snatched one of thier friend's planner, because she has a list of everyone's christmas gift in there. But when they opened it, they found out that the entire list was written in latin. I seriously need to do that one day, because THAT is GOOOOOOOOD. She has some serious skills.

Well, my brother will be arriving to kick me off the computer so he can play W.O.W., so for now I bid you farewell.